Ryan started preschool today!!! He woke up at 5:45 am and wouldn’t go back to sleep. He wouldn’t eat breakfast either! All I could think of is, wow, he’s going to have a heck of a day!!
We got to the school and put his back pack and lunch bag away and he immediately started playing with playdoh. Everything was fine, and I should have just walked out, but I couldn’t leave without saying goodbye. Well, as soon as I said, bye Ryan have a good day, he started crying so hard and wouldn’t let me leave. Finally, 10 minutes later, he started playing again and his teacher booted me out. I could hear him crying when I left the front door. 
His teacher said he cried awhile and then she let him get his Raccoon out of his back pack and he was fine. When we got to school to pick him up, he was asleep on his nap mat. We had to wake him up to take him home. He said he had a good time and will go on Friday. Somehow I don’t think he’s going to let me leave very easily!
Tuesday, August 26th was Mike and I’s 14th anniversary. WOW! I can’t believe we’ve been married that long. I remember thinking I was SUCH an old maid at 22. All my friends were married, I literally was the last one! I NEVER thought I would find Mr. Right.
We met at Oklahoma State University. We were friends for 6 months. He worked the night shift at the front desk of our dorm and I was a night owl. We became friends and then after Christmas that year, we realized we really cared for each other and wanted to date. 6 months later we married at the Payne County court house. After felony docket # 6 (in their bright orange jumpsuits and hand cuffs!) Judge Beldon said (and this is a direct quote!) “I don’t want to see you back here in a year getting a divorce!” You just can’t buy memories like that!!!
We were so young! And thin! hehe
Yesterday was also, Ryan’s 3rd Gotcha day! We celebrated by going bowling (Ryan’s first time!) and ate at McDonald’s (his choice!) What a great memorable day.
We love you so much Ryan Kyeong Tae. You made us a family the day we got you. You’ve brightened our lives, our little Sunshine. Thank you Father God, for giving us the most wonderful gift of all, our handsome and smart son.
We are doing better. Every day gets easier. Knowing we made the right decision helps. We are almost ready to go back on the list. My heart still aches and I still get teary eyed. Today, I asked Jennifer to go with me and together we took back all the clothes I had bought. I am so glad she went, I really needed the moral support. I still have all the girly decorations in the baby room…I missed the return date on them, so for now, I’ll hold on to them and see if we are blessed with another girl referral. If not, I’ll ebay them.
Couple of things….
Ryan’s pet crab Athena, ate his pet snail, Hunky. It was quite the drama in our house this morning when the remains of his body was found floating at the top of the water in the aquarium. First he wanted another snail, but we told him Athena would probably eat him. Then he wanted to trade in Athena for a crab that doesn’t eat snails! (I do need to talk to the pet store because they told me the snail would be fine!)
Ryan starts preschool in less than 2 weeks! I can’t believe my baby boy is potty trained and going to go to school!! He has the cutest back pack and lunch bag. He’s going to LOVE his school (I do!) and I hope he does well. This is really the first time he’s been away from Mommy for more than 4 hours at a time! He HATES the nursery at church and will do anything to sit in the service with us, so I am praying he does great and doesn’t have a hard time separating.
It is with a very heavy heart that we’ve decided to discontinue the adoption of our precious Evie. We consulted a specialist and it was found that she had more issues than we were prepared to deal with. We know we’ve made the right decision and she will ALWAYS be in our thoughts and hearts. But we still feel horrid, wretched, miserable, awful and heartbroken. For now, we’re going to focus on Ryan and grieve. Prayers are appreciated.
